accept the new

Theophilus London - A Strangers Heart by sophiehirst
i don't know how the fuck i slept on this mixtape but i'm gonna be awake all christmas
i've got two days to wrap all my gifts, pack, and get ready for a week off
i'm going to be broke as fuck at the end of it but ohhhhh weelllll. it's easy to be in a good mood this time of year. old friends, time off, dressin nice, givin a shit
no clue about new years but i'm not worried about it
weak post
l8r

coping with self-reliance

i've been getting this lack of feeling

Christmas feels disorganized as fuck this year. probably because I won't be getting my schedule until I'm guessing a few days before the 24th. I could use the time off but I could also use the money, so I've decided either way I'm just going to not complain. I've been hating social activity outside of work so you'd think I'd be getting some shit done but I haven't. I feel uninspired and like everything I'm going to make for anyone will be forced and thus worthless. just some kind of funk I suppose, but it's the time of year for that. I met a man today who loved his job and it was encouraging to see that you can live and not just shit for eight hours a day. I hope one day I can be a part of something I'm interested in. Not just for the money or the hours or the staff party. I'm still without a goal. just a vague direction.

SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE

so after a long wait I have a computer, and loaner camera in working order. couldn't be more stoked. unless the camera wasn't a loaner. Regardless I'm stoked. I'll slowly be uploading pictures of things I've been working on after the retarded busy of the holiday season is over. I spent my friday night this week making this for my sister's birthday, seeing as it's her party tonight.

I also just finished re-appropriating a children's book for her and her boyfriend as a housewarming gift since I never got them one. maybe I'll post it if I ever scan it. until Christmas is over I don't see doing much creatively that isn't a gift, but that's cool too 'cause apparently people want that stuff.
now I'm going to wrap some christmas things and shower and prepare for a costume party for which I have no costume.