an old pair of boxing gloves in a new fight

hell of a monthhh. don't even remember what I did with the first half, saw a lot of people I guess. Thought about what I was thankful for. I do have a lot. bought some supplies, didn't do enough with them, learned the difference between quality and shit in a couple categories. remembered that i'm still just as awkward as I was as a teenager sometimes, the small things don't change. Went to Seattle and saw one of my all-time favorite bands. Got some hours cut at work, disregarded it on the trip. Remembered my life options are limited, and again stressed on how to get the ball rolling. make money, buy the shit I want? or make less and live the life I want minus the material goods. It's all shit that I'd use a lot and they'd be extremely beneficial for what i want to do. I just don't want to throw away all that time to get a couple things and still not be anywhere. Also looked into school and remembered I'm only qualified in one area. DURR
I don't regret any of my past choices because they got me to where I am now. and as much as it is some kind of fucked up limbo I've placed myself in, I don't think I would've realized what I find to be the most important if I followed through with orders and did all the things I didn't want to do and was told were necessary. maybe i'm just stubborn? but still it's something to this day I see a lot of people my age and even much older being unsure of. It was the only way it would've happened and It did. regret is pointless and after all is said and done, I'll remember more than anything the way my actions were treated by the people who were too skeptical to consider I was capable of doing things any differently, and not end up in a ditch. That list is longer than I like to remember

and counting

so I'm realizing i'm entirely inexperienced with paint. I have a lot of ideas and no clue how to follow through.
just drew up a 21"x27" of a sketch I didn't even really complete in my schetchbook, and while I was trying to figure out an appropriate color scheme i realized I just am not even aware of the process I'm going to use? I've only really painted a few times before and they weren't all that large; either on cardboard or 8x10 dollar store canvas. so I didn't really feel like I'd be wasting paint if it didn't turn out, winging it and failing would be just a shrug off. But bigger shit's pricey and also time consuming. I just find it all more impressive on a larger scale and while that affords more potential it's also hellll time eating, complicated, and not easy on $. at times I miss working the nightshift because it wouldn't matter if i stayed up all night and just slept until i had to work. there are far fewer distractions at night, and more often than not when I get started on something later in the day I can't sleep until it's complete. I don't even work fulltime and between massive amounts of socializing lately and needing sleep I just can't get enough done. I have way too much to learn to kill time like i used to. I guess this is why people go to school? as if.

ANYways. nothing new other than that I don't think. time is flying these days. but I started up a new deviant art because I don't even remember how to find my old one. also realizing the only usable art I have can be found in this blog. I desperately need a scanner and/or camera.

REGARDLESS!

the fall

I have an easel now and new paintttt. things to come! And hopefully I'll eventually come in possession of a camera.
alsobirthday was party.
and by that I mean good. no complaints on 21 so far

and I really wish more of the logic of chance sounded like this
The Astounding Earnest Brace (iTunes Bonus Track) by le sac Vs Pip
RICH VS POOR (Japanese Bonus Track) by le sac Vs Pip

london drops ills this month too

You Got The Love from Theophilus London on Vimeo.

gangs of good things to come in october