hell

I've been so fucking unmotivated this week. I'm trying, but it's not happening. I feel completely drained of drive and enthusiasm. It's a fucking writers block. Only I can't draw either. Painful, all I can do is pass the time. Weather must be fucking with me or something.
Listen to your stream of consciousness, take notes, revise. It's the creative process. But there's nothing flowing. My mind is literally a blank page. SO fucking crippling. It's only been two days, but it's making me feel like shit. I think my self esteem dropped over night, when that happens I can't be sure I like the way anything looks so I just piss on a tablet or paper and tell myself it's all I'm worth.
I need a damn pick-me-up
or dinner